Busy, Busy, and more Busy

I never really wanted to be a circus clown, but ever since I started my new job I have found myself in a juggling act. Trying to balance everything has been a challenge, but I am so excited to be a part of the new hospital team. Sure I have shed a lot of tears, some because of post surgical frustration and not being able to do everything I wanted to do (this whole surgery just didn't fit into my schedule very well, after all I have things to do). However, most of those tears were because of the guilt of leaving the kids. I feel like I am in nursing school again--not sleeping, not eating, and leaving my kids with sitters. I am truly blessed to have family help out with the kids and Jalee has been nothing short of a LIFESAVER. I had gotten so used to my night shifts and it worked out so well. I was home with the kids during the day, and could still have a career. That is what is so great about nursing--its the best of both worlds. I really don't know what I would do without my career. Having the ability to impact someones life or save a life is amazing. I am also lucky enough to have a job that changes me for the better. I can step outside my own life and problems and learn from the special people that I take care of. It is the patients that make my job so rewarding. My new job however, has started off a little rough, and only because I find myself outside of my patient care role. We are so busy trying to get everything ready for our big opening, and of course, it is all done 8am to 5pm Monday through Friday. So, though I am so excited to be working there--I will be even more excited to get back on my part-time, night shift schedule and care for real patients. That concludes my venting session tonight--off to bed to prepare for work tomorrow, then I am going to enjoy my two days off.